The Void

Driven to the brink and back
Driven into madness as I scream from the top of my lungs
Will I return?
Will I come back?
I’m not sure
But I’m so
So
Tired

Long miles have my boots traveled
Thier soles are sturdy
But they are flat in the ball
and ground in at the heel
So many miles have they seen
So many puddles they have trudge through
So many times have I wanted to stop

So many hills have I climbed
So many times have I wanted to turn back
But I can’t
Because in the wise words of my father
It is easier to throw rocks at people from the top of the mountain,
Than it is to throw them from the bottom

Beaten and broken are they
The leather scratched and gouged
The toes are faded and brown
With dirt adding to the color
Dirt
Caked to everything

Too long have I trudged through thick and thin
Trying to help
Trying to make them hear
But
As usual
Nobody is listening
Should I stop now?
Should I just
Quit
Give up on this
Impossible idea?

What other options do I have?
What other paths can I take?

I could keep going
I could keep walking up this slippery slope
That was presented to me
but will I get anywhere?
Probably not
Not without support
Support that I don’t have

Gone are the days of old
Gone are the days of plenty
Do I continue to what was destroyed
Or do I just stop here
And watch it crumble
And then look at the rubble
In awe?

Perhaps
Is it still worth the effort?
Is it still worth my time
To watch it all unwind?
No
I think not
But can I tear away?
And leave this cancer?

Can I watch as the lies and deceit tear everything down
As the corrupt destroy the good
As the cloth once white turns black?
I’m not sure if I have the heart to
So I scream
Scream for all that is lost in the void

I can no longer hear
Nor can I speak
Silent am I
as it all unwinds
My boots are but shreds on the grass
My uniform is but ash
Gone are the days of old
Where not a day goes by
That I see that bright glimmer

Now all I see is black
A void of what was
A hole of what is to be
Failed I have
To understand why
And failed it was
The explanation
I want to know why
Why did the void come
Where is it going?
And why am I
Descending to madness

Now is the hour of darkness
Ominous is it?
No
For I shall look at it with a smile
And surprise it with a loud laugh
You can’t kill me
I shall mutter
For I
Am already dead

no longer am I alive
For you have driven away my resolve
No longer am I what I was
For you have hidden it
Done am I
With running from this abyss
I still have my sword
I still possess my shield
If you want me

Come and claim me
And let the rivers run red
With my blood
I have no uniform
No boots of war
I am
In my simplest form
Let me see what you have in store
For you want a fight
So I shall bring a war